Tyson Fury has revealed he came within seconds of killing himself after he was crowned heavyweight world champion.
Fury outpointed the long-reigning Wladimir Klitschko in 2015 to become the unified champion.
But within weeks he hit the bottle and started taking drugs as he struggled to cope with achieving his lifelong goal.
“I hit the drink, I hit the drugs and I was out all night with the women of the night,” he told the Joe Rogan Experience .
“I just wanted to die and I wanted to have fun doing it. But when the drink wears off it just leaves you with a bad hangover and even worse depression.
“When you have a goal in mind from being a child – and you achieve it… I was lost, I didn’t know what to do.
“When I was an amateur I used to watch Wladimir Klitschko on TV and he was my target, when I beat him, that was my Everest.
“I tried retiring, but it wasn’t enough. I tried golfing, clay pigeon shooting, 4×4-ing, strip clubs but I had an emptiness inside.
“I had never taken a drug until I was 27; cocaine was the usual one, cocaine and alcohol. Ilook back on it now and I think, ‘would i change that?’ But I wouldn’t, I wouldn’t change a thing because I knew it had to happen.
“I was waking up and didn’t want to be alive i was making everyone’s life a misery; no-one could talk any sense into me at all.
“I would get very, very low at times and start thinking these crazy thoughts. I bought a brand new Ferrari convertible in the summer of 2016.
“I was in it on the highway and at the bottom, I got the car up to 190mph and heading towards a bridge.
“I didn’t care about nothing, i just wanted to die so bad. I gave up on life but as I was heading to the bridge I heard a voice saying, ‘no don’t do this Tyson; think about your kids, your family, your sons and daughter growing up without a dad.’
“Before i turned into the bridge I pulled on to the motorway, I didn’t know what to do, I was shaking, I was so afraid.
“I said I’d never think about taking my own life again.”
Fury then sought help from a professional – but it was a party the following Halloween that sparked his comeback.
“I sought help from a psychiatrist and she told me dad i was an imminent death [risk].
“I was out at Halloween in 2017 dressed as a skeleton but i was 29 and everyone was younger and i thought, ‘is this what I want from my life?’
“No matter how many people told me before that I needed to change my life, I didn’t know it.
“I left early and went home into a dark room, took the skeleton suit off and I prayed to God to help me. I’d never begged to God to help me. i could feel tears running down my chest, I knew I couldn’t do it on my own.
“I almost accepted that being an alcoholic was my fate but after praying for 10 minutes, I got up I felt the weight was lifted off my shoulders. For the first time in my life i thought I was going to be ok.”
Fury will bid to win the one world title he has not previously held when he takes on Deontay Wilder on December 1.